My life without you !!!!

My life without you is just empty. I feel that my entire body just gone somewhere. I feel like im nobody without you. even if i take my responsability to be with you and " your job " live this deployment is really hard. I don't have any army wives to talk to. My friends are here for me but they don't really know how the us army works even me im not a good teacher into it. Im watching to some homecoming videos and i cry just because i can not wait until my day come and plus because i know my day will come soon. I wake up every morning alone. Taking my coffee in the kitchen and just think about you. I hate this deployment stuff, i hate to be without you. It's may be not our only deployment and i have to learn to deal with it. But i know i will never know how to really deal with it. This time of our story killing me. I try to be strong but yes when we off the cam i just cry because i miss you so much baby. You are my everything and sorry to be like that when you do need me to be strong. At least i have some power to take care of us, our home, our paper, but you are not with me. I promess you that i will be strong but i just need time to put all my tears out.
I will never ever leave you. You are my entire world, my life. I can not live without you. I don't care about what people say. I just care about you and me. My life without you just empty. My life without you don't mean nothing. Please baby come back to me, be strong for us, i really need you to help me to be strong even if i supposed to be strong for you and me. Be safe.
I love you
Pumpkin,