Dear daddy!!!

I miss you so much daddy. It is so hard to be without you? I miss our moments, our talk, our shopping time, our dinner and all the moments that we use to share. I remember the last week that we spend together. You knew that god was about to call you and you talk to me and tell me your last wishes. You was wondering so much about me being alone and you told me that you will send someone who will love me so much just like you. So yes i did receive the one that you send me. I know daddy that from the heaven you are proud of him and got his back. I will never forget the day where you take your last power to walk and go outside. I was so proud of you this day daddy. When we sit in the garden you look at the sky, you took my hands and say :" I want you to be strong CHAMPION! You are the best ! Be a good wife to the one i will send you! Keep going to church! and Keep being the best daughter.!!" well i do my best daddy and i am strong. Like you always call me : CHAMPION. You always told me that no one is good for me and the only one who will be good will be the one that you choose. I use to say that we was not in some countries, that i can decide by myself. We use to have some big argue cause of that. Now i can see what you was talking about. I will always remember our last father day together. It was hard for you to talk but you take your last power and tell me hundred times that you loved me. I love you daddy so much. Well dad i am sure that you see everything is going on down here and i know that you keep an eye on your son. He is strong and i am so proud of him. All the time he wish that he had the time to see you even once. We are getting married next year daddy and i know that you will send us some sign and we will know that you are here with us that day. I Remember when i was maybe 15 and i have my first little date at the mall. You ask this little guy so many questions that he finally say that he have to go home early. I was so mad at you. We was always talking about that day and laugh until belly hurts. When we was palying soccer on the beach and we was cheating to win. We was bad daddy but we had so much fun.
You are the best daddy ever. Without you it is so hard. Nobody do my cup of tea in the afternoon, nobody is here if i am sick and hold me, nobody take a glass of wine and talk all night. But soon your son will be home he will do it for you. I can not stop thinking about the last day i talk to you i wish i understand what you told me but i didn't. I wish i took your pain. Your last 4 hours was terrible for you and i try to help you the best that i can. When you finally close your eyes it was hard for me daddy. Daddy i wish that you can come back to me. I miss you so much.I love you so much.
It is hard for me. Mom at home, your son deployed. I am alone. But i will never give up daddy cause you always call me: CHAMPION.

RIP